Humanistic Studies
“My thinking about the existence of God”
My belief to my God is constructed since I was a
little boy up until now. When I was a little boy, I was introduced to my
religion by my family. At that time, I only knew that I have to pray to my God
in order to make my family happy, or else I will get a punishment both from the
God and my parents. Besides that, my grandmother and my grandfather always told
me stories which is related to my religion everyday (the prophets’ story) so I
was excited, and I believed that if I obey to my religion, I would get the
happiness like the precious prophets had.
When
I entered elementary school, my motivation to pray and my belief to God is increased.
First, because there were a lot of my friends that obeyed the religion that
also I believed, so when I prayed, there were also my friends who accompanied
me. Second, I also joined a ‘madrasah’ at that time. In madrasah, I learn more
about my religion. From the meaning, law/rules, and also the implication in the
real life and the afterlife. Because of that, my motivation, and my reason to
believe my god is increased higher and higher. When I had a question, I could
ask it to my teacher in madrasah, so I did not had many curiosity about my
religion, because my teacher could give a good and clear explanation and
examples of it.
In highschool I joined the mosque youth organization.
There I studied my religion deeper and also I applied my knowledge in most of
the activities/events in that organization ( creating islamic celebration event,
such as Islamic new year, tarbiyatul qurban, etc.) Therefore, from that
experience I became more serious and motivated in learning my religion, because
beside It was fun, It also had a deep meaning that relates with the social act
and of course with the harmony of the afterlife later.
If I relate my experience with the lesson that I
learned from Miss Saras, I conclude that my belief is constructed from the
obedience toward my religion, to critical and deep thinking about my religion
and also the other. As miss Saras said that religion is viewed as the obedience
of people to one religion. At my early age (baby to Highschool) I view my
religion as a form of obedience that could not be discussed. But, when I grew
up, my curiosity was increased and then I started to think critically about my
religion. I learned from my teachers, and I got many knowledges, and broader
view of my religion after I learned about them. So the more I find out about my
religion, the stronger my belief towards it. Somehow, I agree about the
philosophers’ opinion that we have to be more curios and keep asking about what
happened in our life, from the smallest into the biggest part. In my religion,
there is also an order to see critically what are the meanings of all the
creations in this universe. So from that we can be a more grateful people. But,
again I think it is better to have a high basic competence in one thing before
we criticize about something. Because if we don’t have that competence, we
would be loose in our foundation, and make us confused.
I view the God’s presence in my life based on evidence
that I found in my real-life. Personally, when I do pray to my God, I feel the
harmony inside my head, and my heart. I feel so relaxed, and get a new spirit
to do good things. But, when I forgot or late to pray, it seems I feel very worried
and I cannot be focus in doing many things. Besides that, I also observe the people
that seriously apply the religion value in every part of their life. All of them
seems very calm and firm in facing many trials and challenges in this world.
Besides that, they all have a good harmony in their life, from family, business,
social interactions, and also fame. I believe that God always care to every people
in this world, especially to those who are sure of it.
Derry Rahmat Ramdhani
2011120018
